fish, again ):
sigh . it's so tiring .
no point arguing .

i wished we could go back to like 6 years ago .
when you were still mine .
i want you just for once , put what i need first .
somehow , this is the point where i needed it .

i've heard these words so often that
i could have recited it with you.
it was at this point in our
non-conversations that i give up,
and just went back to my room ,
but this time, i'm different .
everything is different .

i can't act happy and pretend, its tiring .
i'm the bad one because i don't pretend?

i'm sick of lying , of covering .

this weekend has passed so quickly .
i've been so frequently tired .
somehow, i prefer weekdays .
at least ... ):

i hope i don't do that badly for CT1.
i guessed i disappointed too many people already.
though it's uninvitable .
at least i see i'm improving ,
not overnight that i can get back to the 'o8 me.
i'll try (:
i promise .