things haven't been going well at home lately. i guess i'm a family problem kid uhs? sigh ): i want to help, but i don't know how to . i think things are sort of scaring me .

it's christmas, but it doesn't feels like christmas to me. school's starting soon. and i'm really afraid of all the qualifying test. i still haven't made up my mind on amaths. should i or should i not drop it? i guess it's gonna be a hard decision. sometimes i wonder why i can't be like some of my smart classmates , whereby their maths all get "A"s. i don't deny that yes, i do get jealous. but what to do, i don't seem to have math cells -.-"

homework all not done yet. and shit, cause i don't seem to be able to sit and concentrate on my homework. not when my mind is on other things . people always assume that my grades are deproving and i'm emoing cause of relationship . but well, that's not true. sigh ): i don't know how to explain to others , and when theydo accuse me, i can't say anything . maybe to some, i'm just some pathethic emo girl who's bf giving her troubles and heartbreak .

if there ever comes a day when we can't be together , keep me in your heart, i'll stay there forever (: ~ winnie the pooh