we got our class tee today(:
cool right?
the yellow very bright.
results today.
i failed a math )':
i don't know if it is me,
or is is that she does'nt want to give me the marks.
the workings are the same,
and the answers are correct.
i thought for math,
once answer is correct all is correct?
saw Jackson downstairs.
i was roaming actually.
cause did'nt feel like going home.
talked for some time.
asked mum to call mrs thia.
but she did'nt want to.
i mean, cant you help me?
why...
i know other parents who would gladly do that.
i don't know if it was my tone.
but i find it rather okay.
you even said i was to blame.
cause i did'nt study.
but i really did all that i could.
i just wanted a pass.
just a pass.
and i'll be happy :D
but you said :
" you only have yourself to blame,
cause you did'nt study hard enough,
why hassle over the 1 or 2 marks."
it hurted , so much.
that 1 or 2 marks would mean the world to me,
cause then i'll know someone cared.
i wasn't being picked on.
thats all i wanted.
i find is so hard to find someone to talk to sometimes,
someone who really understands.
who bothers to listen.
i really need a listening ear.
but when i need it the most...
i dont seem to be able to find it.
i wanna run,
to somewhere far far away.
never turning back.
cause its too hard here.
there are times when i wake up in the middle of the night,
so afraid.. with feelings that cannot be described.
so empty inside,
an emptiness that nothing can feel.
and no, its never hunger.
i hate waking up in the witch hours.
thats why i try to sleep late.
to make sure i dont..
but.. i still do.
