i'm so dead.
i screwed my physics & emath paper1.
i think i have to apologize to
Mrs Thia and Mr sim .
but i did study.
nothing seems to be getting into my head though.
i gotta stop slashing.
it leaves so much ugly scars.
i don't know why,
sometimes.. it seems the only relief.
i'm so tired.
i keep getting setbacks.
it feels as though it'll only
take one mere push,
to get me off the edge.
i keep forgetting stuff,
and it bodes bad..
especially during the exam period.
how i wish i got perfect memory ;D
i know i promised to buck up.
i promised to study.
but my answer when
you asked me how my preparations were;
they dissapointed you.
i'm sorry.
i studied, but i still got no confidence in the papers.
i don't know what results i will take back this time.
i might be the last in class..
i dont know.
just thinking about it scares me .

had amath extra class after exam today.
from 11pm to 1.30pm.
headed to hougang mall with rani.
saw Atika there,
they are so lucky..
got to leave school at 10.30pm.
alrights,
gotta go off now,
goodbye.