guides was rather a success last week i guess.
hope the seniors are happy,
and do miss us aye? [:

mdm lung cut up a frog during biology today.
it was disgusting,
i rather the green house tour we had.
hahas, biology very interactive today.
it was like we went for a field trip.

went to hougang mall after school with rani and evelyn :D
has snow ice.
then head-ed home.
evelyn came to my house :D
we had a great chat,
but there are more to clear up uh?
walked past my tution teacher,
but i did'nt see him :x
and evelyn just said" your.... your...?!"
hahas, i wanted to ask her my what? [:

have to go for a health check-up appointment,
at health promotion board :x
lols.
wonder if mum will go with me.
cause its on a monday,
and i guess she'll be working.

i really want to know the truth.
please tell me.
you've all been keeping it from me.
but i need to know.
i won't get angry,
i won't do silly things.
i promise.
but do tell me uhs?
i'm sick and tired of guessing.
this fear and distrust inside me is getting stronger.
i want to clear this up once and for all.

i give up.
i don't wanna hear i dont remember.
i want a certain answer.
i don't blame anyone.
maybe, no one will understand how it feels like.
unless you're experienced what i've gone through.
i know you must be wondering,
why i can't just move on.
why i can't forget,
i'm sorry.
i'm one who holds grudges.
and i don't want neither myself,
nor my friends to be hurt again.
one apology is'nt enough.
it might have seemed not like a big deal to you,
but it was to me.
cause i'm still searching,
someone to rely on.
someone i can trust.

don't be mistaken,
i'm not angry.
nor am i starting anything again.
i thank you for still being my friend.
for talking to me,
and i'm forever sorry..
if i'm not talking to you in school.
i'm afraid.
i've never allowed anyone to see the weak me,
cause i'm afraid someone will take the chance to attack.
but i guess you all think too highly of me.
i'm neither that strong,
nor am i saint.
i don't know how to explain.
how i feel,
how i need you to assure me.
how i need someone to assure me,
to understand..