somehow i expected today.
i don't really feel sad..
abit hurt perhaps.
maybe i was already numb.
a mixture of feeling going on inside me.
not all negative though.
i am somehow happy as i felt relieved.
you've finally made a choice.
i have been expecting this since last year.

i already said you will have to make a choice ultimately haven't i?
it was true wasn't it?
well i don't blame you.
it's no one's fault.
like i once said..
a broken vase can never be
piece back together no matter how hard one tried.
it will still leave a mark...
a bearing scar.

i don't know why someone hates me so much.
but i can do nothing about that.
i'll miss the times for sure.
but i guess time will heal all wounds.
i was not hurt deep this time,
i guess that was because i was prepared.
luckily i was though,
for i don't know what might happen if i was not.

its your life, your friends.
you make a choice..
i have to make a choice too.
i've made a choice long ago...
to go along with whatever decisions you make.

i realised i dont need people to trust me.
true friends will always be there for me.
and i know that whatever happens.
i'm lucky for that special someone..
who has always been there for me.
i don't have to make everyone believe..
for the truth will always surface.

maybe i'll just have to play along for now.
even though how unwilling i may be...
its not going to change anything.
i seriously dont see in giving my all,
when i get repeatedly dissapointed.
i'm sorry, i really am.