okkayes.
i admit i'm so stupid.
i believed you lahs.
i thought you really wanted to sort
it out with me.

but you pangseh me.
not even an sms.
i called and called you.
but you ignored the call right?

at first i was silly.
i thought something had
happened to you.
then i saw your blog.

you had reached home.
and even blogged.
stop all this kayyes?
i mean if you really
don't mean it.
don't do it...
just leave me alone.

i'll be me again slowly.
it takes time.
but i will(:

cause i have friends who still
believe me.
who still cares for me.
and they are my pillar of strength.

i really wanna forget everything already.
i was foolish.
i waited for you outside my gate.
waiting for you to come.

but you never did...
oh GOD, why am i so stuppid. -.-
why do i still believe you?
i really don't know.
cause maybe i'm wrong.
you won't miss me, or the times we shared.

you can just get new best friends.
i don't mean much to you.
but i can't.
i'll only make someone my best friend,
when we are really really close.

i don't just call anyone
my best friend.
cause they must prove they're worth it.
maybe thats does not apply to you.

you left me behind,
and made more best friends.
i really do not understand.
i don't want many friends.
i just want one true friend.
who'll stick by me(:

i'm sorry.
if i hurt you by saying all this.
but i'm also hurt by what you did.
saying you wanna talk
and sort things out.

but made me wait
and pangseh me.
not even bothering to sms me
to say you were'nt coming.

i guess.
it's really time for me to forget.
and time for me to move on.
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and thank you all teachers.
i really really love ya all(:

mummy i love you too.
no matter how bad i was,
you never gave up on me.
sometimes you scold me,
but i know its for ym own good.
although i don't like it :X
i'm sorry when i disobey.
i'm sorry for wrong things i say.
i'm sorry when i want my own way.
and i love you <3
thanks for today too.