i lose my trust once.
i lose my confidence before too.
but, you were always there for me.
but since i made that decision.
i knew that you will never be there again.
but i hold you deep inside my heart.
where nobody can ever reach.
you will never be replaced.
if one day,
you have your decision.
and decided to be my friend again.
i assure you i'll still welcome you into my heart.
because no one can replace you.
the memories will never be forgotten.
and i'll never forget the promises.
i'll wait.
i promise i will.
cause i remember,
that one day, we will tell our grandkids how we met.
i still believe.
that will happen(:
maybe now its not the time.
but i'll hold on to everything.
but don't make me wait too long.
cause my faith drops everyday.
i cannot wait forever.

MEMORIES linger in thoughts.
LOVE warms the heart.
JOY connects the past.
TEARS blurs the present.
FAITH promises reunion in the future(:

BFF, Adelle
i promised i'll be there.
and you also said forever.
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i really am sorry.
but i feel that i did no wrong.
maybe to you i don't seem to care.
but i do, i really do.

i care for this more than anything else.
but i cannot solve this like i say.
not on my own.

i can be your friend again.
i don't blame anyone.
but i have to forget for now.

cause i wanna be happy.
i don't wanna be sad.
it's not worthwhile.

i just wanna cry out loud.
but i know it will not help.
i wanna dance my heart out.
but its not possible.
cause there's no space here.

i wanna be the girl i used to be.
able to laugh every single day.
laugh out loud.

i wanna control my temper.
i don't wanna erupt at every single thing.
so i have to make a decision.

or else..
i will breakdown.
i will be hated among all.
and so...
i decided for you.
i know i'm selfish.

but i guess you found
your one true bestest friend already.
i wish you luck(:
in exams or anything.

i chose this path cause..
i know it will be the best.
this few weeks will be the hardest
period for me.
but once i overcome this..
this will do us good in the long run.

i don't wanna hurt anyone again.
and i'm not one who'll take revenge.
cause i cannot judge anyone's actions.
GOD will do that.
and he will do justice to me.
i believe.

i'm gonna try and be happy.
keep a happy-go-lucky spirit.
& i'm gonna dance my heart out at dance class.
like what i used to do.

i want to tell you everything.
i want to say that you meant everything to me.
i want to say that i don't mind that you hurt me.
but i keep silient.
cause you made your decision.
and i shall accept it.
i cannot force you.
so i shall just accept.
and follow what GOD tells me.

i believe that he will show
me my destination.
and this is all fated.
but i'll not forget the memories you gave me.
thanks(: